So my highly successful blog so far comprises of two duplicate, first posts!

Ive had a shit time of it recently and in turn have discovered that I have no urge to write when I have nothing good or at least sarcastic to say.

Work has reached a new and ever more personal depth of hurt and stress and I am questioning whether everything that I have worked so unbelievably hard to obtain may not actually be what I want anymore. To finally admit this feels like an ultimate betrayal, I have dedicated my life to setting up an ethical, fair, fun and successful company which also finally provides me with a decent income after years of struggling.

The truth is that my company has grown to a point and I am at a crossroads. I either make firm decisions to invest and expand, stay as I am or sell. Whilst I don’t underestimate the skill set and demands of running a far larger company, the same shit exists for a smaller company like mine but with less monetary gain! I have no business partner and despite having an excellent family support network I am very alone.

Is it time to admit I am depleted? Am I depleted or am I simply making an executive decision to act on the choices available to me to fulfill my life’s purpose?  I think I first need to establish what my life’s purpose is before I can answer this #mustworkonthis.

I am fortunate to have mentors and relationships with other business professionals – in fact, scrap that! I am not forttnate at all, I have worked very hard to build a mentor network. I have listened to those whom I seek advice from and in turn often act upon their recommendations I have gained the respect and admiration of some highly successful entrepreneurs (my brother thinks the blonde hair helps with those whom are male but I chose to ignore this), yet I still feel unbelievably alone.

Do we actually know and review what our life purpose is? How often do you imagine your funeral day and wonder what people will say about you, what would you hope they would say??

What is my life purpose?

To be continued……….at an unknown time as this may take a while to fathom.

After hearing the words ‘May, you should write a book’, most weeks for as long as i can remember, I decided not to write a book!

Surely everyone has their dramas and sagas, highs and lows, I see no reason why I should be the one to write a book, but after my most recent new starter at work said after only two weeks of working with me ‘you should write a book’ as she laughed out loud (lol’ if your down with the kids), it made me think, maybe i’ll write blog instead.

As a successful business woman I am very sceptical about those who publish their every moment on-line (every relationship breakup, every good meal, bad takeaway, the death of the family pet), however I must admit I built a currently solid business originally around social media and other on line portals, so used in the correct manner it can be fantastic!

Outcome: In any situation (business or personal) I firstly decided what outcome I desire/need. I am however unsure of what outcome I desire from sharing my personal day to day live with potentially millions (if I obtain one follower I will be amazed) of people whom I have never had the opportunity to meet.

Maybe I just need an outlet. As the business grows, along with it does my personal professionalism and I now find that my innner voice is growing too. I hope if nothing else that some of my trials and tribulations will at the very least make one person smile as they relate to my own situation and the icing on the cake would be to help someone in a similar situation.

So hear I am, I have no followers, no direction and no clue, but as my partner is sat watching the football, I figured ‘fuck it’, i’ll have a glass of wine and see if I can work out how to set up a blog!!

Hello, I am May!

xx